new year's reflection blog
i suppose it's time for the yearly reflection. how funny i never look at jan 1st as the beginning of a new year. i've been tied to an academic calendar that september is the beginning of the year for me. but reflections don't really happen in september; they come in the cold winter months.
while i believe i'm a slacker extraordinaire, i'm a goal oriented slacker extraordinaire. when i was 23 my goal was to move out of my house by 26. that goal came about because i made another goal come to fruition: grad school. at 26 i got into grad school, moved out of my parents house, and set myself up for two years of hard work, stress, and the meaning of life.
i finished grad school this past may and the meaning of life never came. the economy looked like it sitting on toothpicks and the bottom was about to fall on the job market. luckily i have friends in the community who believe in me and i finally became staff for a LA filipino american non profit. i got a job at the university i always dreamed i'd attend.
now i'm at this stage where i don't know where to go to next. what's my next goal? where do i go from here? i feel like evita before she heads to buenos aires, but without the goal of marrying a future fascist leader. i feel like i'm in limbo. i need new goals. new career goals. i'm contemplating and considering, so hopefully new goals will arise.
life is an odd thing. you think you have a plan and then the plan bails on you. or you bail on the plan. do i have a clean slate? possibly. am i just gonna ride it out? sure. 2008 was a tough year. 2009 will be better because i'll make it so.
el fin
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